WHAT HAS YOUR BODY DONE?

I've never given much thought to what my body has actually done and achieved in it's 37 years in this life.

I entered the world bum first leaving the security of my mothers womb. My body learnt to crawl then walk, fall down, get back up again. It learnt to ride a push bike and later a motorbike achieving a 3rd place in the Australian Short Circuit Motorcycle Titles. It learnt to hop, skip and jump using all these skills to represent NSW in State Age Netball. It learnt to long jump, high jump, throw a discus and shot put, hurdle, sprint short and jog long distances and very successfully in all these endeavours. It learnt ball skills and hand/eye coordination which it used playing soccer and touch football.

One of its biggest and best achievements was growing three healthy babies and carrying them to term. And then pushing watermelons out a hole the size of an orange. It grew coconuts on my chest and filled them with milk with the perfect blend of nutrients to feed my babies.

And growing older it danced, pole danced, ran, rode, stepped and lifted heavy shit.

Pretty fucking intelligent really.

And this is just some of what it has done. So, if it's done all of this and much much more I'm absolutely certain it can learn to regulate my body weight and appetite without outside influence.

THANKS FOR THE LAUGH MUMMY!

Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is this true?
A: Your heart only good for so many beats, and that it...don't waste on exercise. Everything wear out eventually. Speeding up heart not make you live longer; it like saying you extend life of car by driving faster. Want to live longer? Take nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiency. What does cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So steak is nothing more than efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef also good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And pork chop can give you 100% of recommended daily allowance of vegetable product.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine, that mean they take water out of fruity bit so you get even more of goodness that way. Beer also made of grain. Bottom up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have body and you have fat, your ratio one to one. If you have two bodies, your ratio two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?
A: Can't think of single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No pain...good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU NOT LISTENING! Food are fried these day in vegetable oil. In fact, they permeated by it. How could getting more vegetable be bad for you?!?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise muscle, it get bigger. You should only be doing sit-up if you want bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy?!? HEL-LO-O!! Cocoa bean! Another vegetable! It best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming good for your figure, explain whale to me..

Q: Is getting in shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' a shape! Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets.

And remember:

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO-HOO, what a ride!!"

HELP WANTED!!

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SEE YOURSELF IN YOUR VISION!!

It all starts in the mind. It starts with a vision. What do you want your life to be? It starts now with a thought. Don't wait for coincidences. Create your future. Don't give up or be disheartened. Just when you're about to give up, your dreams are just around the corner. Only you know what your life will be.

QUIET TIME!!

Awesome photography by Corne Lategan. And hot body Nathan Wallace Mr Olympia. Good friend of Matt's.

It was the magic mushies I baked last night. I write better than I speak. One day you're going to receive a book in the mail with the postage stamp marked Quebec City and inside the front cover are going to be the words:

Hey big spunk

I did it!!

Love Shelley

And you're going to say "She was right - about EVERYTHING!"

Thurday's Lift Heavy Shit Session

Stiff Leg Deadlifts

- 115 kgs x 7 reps

- 120 kgs x 6 reps

- 130 kgs x 2 reps, drop 3

Lying Leg Curls

- 80 pds x 8 reps (really really short)

- 80 pds x 8 reps (getting a little better)

- 80 pds x 4 reps (just stuffed)

Leg Press

- 160 kgs x 10 reps - wide placement

- 160 kgs x 25 reps - knees and feet together

- 200 kgs x 20 reps

- 240 kgs x 20 reps

THOUGHTS................

Thinking means we are in our heads. When we feel something we think it must be true. We judge and react emotionally through fear. What we are actually feeling is trying to tell us something. Feelings come from from deep inside you. Thoughts are just ideas or images. It's the feelings that we attach to the ideas or images that form either positive or negative energy. Thoughts alone cannot harm you. Allow yourself to feel by trusting yourself. Get out of your head and into your body. Breathe girl breathe. Breathe and trust is all you have to do.

Or you can email your friend and tell her you feel scared to which she will reply:

"It's OK to be scared - we can hold hands and together look into the eyes of fear and say "Fuck Off!"

THERE'S NOTHING YOU NEED!!

There is nothing that you need in order to be perfectly happy. You only think that there is. Your deepest, most perfect happiness can be found within, and once you find it, nothing outside of yourself can compare, nor can anything destroy the total bliss of communication within.

Seek and you shall find. And on this day your need for anything else will end. Simply be quiet. Some call it meditation but it can be as simple as walking alone or sitting quietly. Just BE with your Self in the stillness. Do it often. Do it daily. Stop thinking. It can change everything and you will be a different person.

ONE SIMPLE QUESTION!!

The most important question you will ever ask yourself is:

Is this Who I Am?

Firstly, who you are not. You are not your past, your yesterdays. You do not need to forget your past for your past has served you, given you a gift. Yet, you have decided to let go and begin anew in each golden moment of Now.

Every decision in life can be profitable by asking this magical question. It will change long-held character traits or behaviours. You will be not who you thought you were, but who you wish to be.

Every decision you make is not a decision about what to do. It's a decision about Who You Are.

You are whoever you say you are.

MATT WANTS YOUR ANSWER!!

The scenario:

Matt is training at a public gym. There's a girl squating in the squat rack. A group of guys gathered around pointing and watching. Matt notices that as the girl squats her tights become very see-through and it's apparent the guys around are watching her.

Does he tell her?? Would you want to be told?? Would you tell Matt off and call him a pervert if he did tell you??

My answer: "I'm not telling you this to upset or embarrass you but when you squat your pants are really see through and the guys are watching you".

Monday's Lift Heavy Shit Session

Incline Barbell Press

- 55 kgs x 4 reps + 3 short

- 55 kgs x 5 reps (off pins - pins low)

Barbell Bent Over Rows

- 85 kgs x 6 reps + 4 (getting upright)

- 85 kgs x 12 reps

Overhead DB Tricep Extensions

- 17.5 kgs x 11 reps + 1

- 17.5 kgs x 7 reps, fail 8

Lying Bicep Curls

- 20 kgs x 17 reps

- 23 kgs x 5 reps (out of chair a lot)

I CRACK MYSELF UP!!

Did you know that laughter can do all of the following things (and perhaps much more that scientists have yet to discover)?

• Improves overall sense of well-being
• Burns calories
• Boosts happiness
• Strengthens and balances the immune system
• Releases endorphins to naturally relieve pain
• Decreases the level of stress hormone
• Lowers blood pressure
• Nurtures creativity
• Reduces risk of heart disease
• Floods the body with a natural "happy hormone"
• Helps manage and overcome depression
• Deepens inner peace
• Breaks social isolation and fosters new friendships
• Develops self-confidence
• Alleviates the discomfort of specific physical challenges
• Aids the body in keeping blood sugar at a healthy level
• Cultivates your childlike playfulness for a happier you

So, go on. Laugh your arse off!!

THE TORNADO THAT SWEPT ASHGROVE

The storyline follows that of Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz.

Shelley who lives in Ashgrove with her husband and two of her children dreams of a better place "somewhere over the rainbow." After being caught up in a whirlwind of a tornado over the past two days she is transported to the magical Land of Doubts. There, the good Lord advises Shelley to follow the yellow brick road to Happiness and meet her Spirit who can return her to Peace.

During her journey, she encounters a Mad Monkey, The Hulk and a Butt Man who join her, hoping to receive what they lack themselves (calmness, love, relaxation) all whilst being hindered and threatened by a Grim Reaper.

The four travellers are marvelled at the wonders they find, but are frustrated at their reception by the "great and powerful" Spirit who declines to help them until they bring her understanding. Daunted but determined they set off again.

God appears and explains that Shelley has always had the power to get Peace; God didn't tell her before because Shelley wouldn't have believed it. Bidding her old friends turned enermies good-bye, Shelley taps her ankles together three times, repeats "There's no place like Peace" and her tattoos take her back to Peace.

We are learning, practicing, falling down, getting up, finding more things that need to be changed, reaching forward into new beliefs and beginnings, and falling backward into depression, bargaining, anger, and blame. We are developing the belief system we need to support our full growth. It's the part of the process that requires understanding and faith. Your spiritual and mental growth may not be immediately visible, but if you stay in the process there is no way that you can avoid seeing the results. Above ground, it may look as if nothing is happening, but underneath a miracle is taking place. This is the most important and tumultuous stage of all. This is the stage where the action is.

IT'S MASTICATION NOT MASTURBATION!!

What is Fletcherism??

Fletch·er·ism

n : the practice of eating in small amounts and only when hungry and of chewing one's food thoroughly

Fletcher, Horace (1849-1919), American dietitian. Fletcher was plagued by obesity and indigestion most of his life. Then in 1895 he set out to find the key to good health. After several failures he finally decided that the solution lay in chewing one's food thoroughly. He developed a set of principles which he then proceeded to propagate. The basic tenets were these: one should eat only when genuinely hungry and never when anxious, depressed, or otherwise preoccupied; one may eat any food that appeals to the appetite; one should chew each mouthful of food 32 times or, ideally, until the food liquefies; one should enjoy one's food.

Who would have thought one could get so much pleasure from masticating!! (LOL dirty bitch)

WHAT IS IT THAT YOU BELIEVE?

Every one of us is perfect, pure, and beautiful. We may do things that we deem not perfect but everything in life occurs for a perfect reason. Nothing happens by chance. Everyone that comes into your life does so for a reason. They come to you with a gift, a message, a learning. Everything is as it should be right at this very moment. Your past, as painful as it may have been at times, was what was meant to be. For without it you wouldn't be where you are now. You needed to feel all that you felt. You were destined to survive the nightmare and live the dream. There's a lot that you don't know, a lot that you're still learning. You're doing a bloody fantastic job! You are open to new ideas and new possibilities. You are ready, willing and able. And this is just the beginning.

NEVER FORGET!!

Or rather always remember what wonderful, supportive, encouraging friends you have.

This fabulous friend threw me the life buoy today when I had fallen into the river with my fucked up thoughts. After 15 minutes on the tready this morning at home I said out loud "I need to breathe" and doing so listening to a relaxation cd thought I had come back to the moment. But then it started again, round and around in circles. I didn't want to train today but thought I'd let her down so instead I let myself down. Removed myself from rpm during track 3 and waited for our weights session but this didn't give me what I needed today. After only a few sets my wonderful friend suggested we call it quits and go and have a cuppa. Thank you so much. I'm feeling much better. I'm off now for a beauty garden organic facial and exfoliating body treatment.

Au revoir et salut

THE BASICS OF A BANGING BODY!!

Four important fundamentals for naturally lean living:

1 Always eat when you are HUNGRY.

If you don't eat, you don't shit, you don't shit you die (is what my Dad always said)! But know what hunger is. It's not a feeling of boredom or fear or stress or anxiety. Know what it feels like in your stomach. You won't get it right all the time but over time it will get easier.

2 Eat what you FEEL like.

Yep, if you want to eat chocolate and lollies all day long then do so but remember number 1, you're only eating them when you are truly hungry. The mistake people make with this guideline is that they think they'll eat unhealthy food all day long every day but I'm pretty sure even I would get sick of chocolate and lollies if I did this. It's not natural instinct to live on this food and eventually you'll crave meat and veg for example.

3 Eat CONSCIOUSLY and MINDFULLY.

Use all your senses and enjoy every single mouthful. Feel the flavours and delight your senses. Get that party in your mouth happening.

4 STOP eating when full.

You've done it before. It may have been a long time ago but you have done it. As a baby, a child. When your mother tried to get you to have more breast or bottle you spat it out or wouldn't take it. As we grew older we learned to overeat, binge, stuff ourselves stupid. Whatever we learn we can unlearn.

Of course, there are many more variables to this, but here's an excellent place to start. You might like to head over here for a more detailed rundown.

CLEANING UP AND CLEARING OUT!!

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Hot Rox, normally $93, sell $70

Biotest Superfood, normally $90, sell $60

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Creatine, normally $70, sell $55

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CAN YOU BE NICE TO ME TODAY PLEASE?

Stiff Leg Deadlifts
- 100 kgs x 10 reps
- 110 kgs x 8 reps
- 120 kgs x 4 reps

Lying Leg Curls
- 70 pds x 17 reps + 3
- 70 pds x 15 reps (getting short)
- 70 pds x 10 reps

Wide Stance Leg Press
- 140 kgs x 10 reps
- 160 kgs x 10 reps
- 180 kgs x 10 reps

Yeah right. As if that was nice!

A RECIPE FOR DISASTER!!

Your body knows best about what you need. Everytime you eat something you don't really want or feel like you are reinforcing the idea that someone other than you and your body knows better and the diet mentality. If you enjoy every single bite you will satisfy your body, mind and spirit so much easier and quicker. How many times have you eaten what you think you should eat rather than what you really want only to continue eating trying to get that feeling of satisfaction only to end up eating the crunchie you wanted in the first place? You could have saved yourself hundreds, maybe thousands of calories and hours of mental anguish if you had just eaten what you wanted in the first place and nutured yourself with love and approval.

IT SADDENS ME!!

It saddens me so much to read about how others are feeling and struggling post comp knowing that I have been where they are. Perhaps I should be taking my own advice "If you don't like what I write, then don't read it." I realise that everyone is on their own time line and journey but I still want to take away their pain. I want to hand them the ladder to climb out. I want to tell them that it's not their fault. That the balance has been tipped and will now tip in the other direction plus some. It's inevitable. And that each and every time they manipulate the balance on purpose the same will happen. I want to show them that one day standing on a stage in the leanest shape of their lives, not the best shape of their lives is NOT worth the days, weeks, months of self-hatred, self-loathing, mental anguish, negativity. Those are days, weeks, months wasted in one's life. I want to share everything I've learnt and am continuing to learn. I want to tell them who they really are.

But I wont do any of this because it's not my life or my journey, it's theirs. And I will let others take responsibility for themselves knowing that this assists their own growth and confidence.

IS YOUR MIRROR A MAGIC OR FUN-HOUSE ONE?

By making peace with the body you have now will give you the body you want in your visualisation. If you live with a distorted self-image you are keeping yourself from truly enjoying life and being happy. If you look in the mirror of a morning and tell yourself "You're a fat fucking cow" or "You have fat thighs and a fat arse" then you'll go about your whole day not feeling good about yourself. Instead, think back to what others have said to you. "You're shoulders are amazing", "Super strong girl", "You're a sex kitten". See what others see in you. Smile and notice how good that feels. Take that feeling and hold it close to your heart always. Never say to yourself what you wouldn't say to anothers' face.

A LETTER TO ME

Dear Shelley

I am so happy for you to see that you are loving life so much. I see that you have courage, patience, happiness, strength, peace, faith and love all evident not only on your body as tattoos but also in the way you carry yourself and speak. You are looking brighter and more beautiful each and every day. I am really proud of you for working through your thoughts and fears. You will never have to go through this again. You deserve every miracle that is happening to you and for you. You are worthy of love and that is my gift to you. Thank you for trusting in me.

Love Shelley

PS I love your funky hair and you still shag like a minx! I love your sense of humour.

BUGGER, BUM, POO!!

The comp this Saturday is a Bench Press only comp not all 3 lifts as I first thought so not entering but just going to go for a looksie if anyone's interested in coming with me??

Incline Barbell Press
- 50 kgs x 9 reps
- 55kgs x 4 reps + 4 (shoulders coming forward)

Bent Over Barbell Rows
- 75 kgs x 10 reps + 10 (getting upright)
- 80 kgs x 10 reps

Overhead DB Tricep Extensions SS with
- 15 kgs x 12 reps + 8
- 15 kgs x 20 reps
- 15 kgs x 13 reps + 1

Lying Bicep Curls
- 20 kgs x 13 reps (scary hard)
- 20 kgs x 11 reps
- 20 kgs x 8 reps

DEAR KATE

Yes, I am calmer!

Yes, I am more peaceful!

(Inside left ankle)

Yes, I have faith now!

(Inside right ankle)

Yes, I love myself!

(Right hand - the hand that feeds me)

And, I got tattooed to celebrate!!

I had the best time ever over the weekend with Katie firstly celebrating her birthday on Friday wining and dining. Saturday brought a beautiful walk followed by some deep breathing and yoga poses then tattooing us both before settling in for a relaxation massage, a couple of dvds and lots of chatting and chilling. Sunday finished off a fabulous weekend with bite me burgers and some clothes shopping before sadly I had to depart.

GUESS WHERE I AM?

In Sydney hangin' with her. I flew down yesterday to surprise gorgeous Katie for her birthday. There'll be no blogging until I get home as me and Mrs are gonna get up to some mischief!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEAUTIFUL!!

This smokin' HOT chicky is having a birthday today. Surprised ya didn't I? BTW - how are you wearing your hair these days? I have a couple of different styled photos but loved this one. You look so happy, bright and bubbly. Have a wonderful, wonderful day sweetheart. Here's hoping each minute gets better and better. I'm betting it does!

I AM ME!!

Virginia Satir was a noted psychotherapist, known for her approach to family therapy. She wrote this poem when she was working with an angry fifteen-year-old girl who had a lot of questions about herself and what life meant.

I am me.

In all the world, there is no one exactly like me.
There are persons who have some parts like me,
but no one adds up exactly like me.

Therefore, everything that comes out of me
is authentically mine because I alone choose it.

I own everything about me
my body including everything it does;
my mind including all its thoughts and ideas;
my eyes including the images all they behold;
my feelings whatever they may be ...
anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement

my mouth and all the words that come out it
polite, sweet or rough,
correct or incorrect;
my voice loud or soft.
And all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself.

I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears.
I own all my triumphs and successes,
all my failures and mistakes.
Because I own all of me I can become intimately acquainted with me.
By doing so I can love me and be friendly with me in all parts.
I can then make it possible for all of me to work in my best interests.

I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me,
and other aspects that I do not know.
But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself,
I can courageously and hopefully, look for solutions to the puzzles
and for ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think
and feel at a given moment in time is me.
This is authentic and represents where I am in that moment in time.
When I review later how I looked and sounded, what I said and did, and how I
thought and felt, some parts may turn out to be unfitting.
I can discard that which is unfitting, and keep that which proved fitting,
And invent something new for that which I discarded.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do.
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive,
and to make sense and order out of the world of people
and things outside of me.
I own me, and therefore I can engineer me.

I am me and I am ok.

SAVE A HORSE, RIDE A COWBOY!!

BIG & RICH | SAVE A HORSE (RIDE A COWBOY) @ Yahoo! Video

Thursday Lift Heavy Shit Session

Stiff Leg Deadlifts
- 90 kgs x 25 reps
- 100 kgs x 12 reps
- 110 kgs x 6 reps, drop 7

Lying Leg Curls
- 60 pds x 20 reps
- 60 pds x 20 reps, getting super short

Wide Leg Press
- 140 kgs x 40 reps
- 140 kgs x 30 reps
- 140 kgs x 20 reps

Matt told me today he'd broken the leg press the other day. I was just about to jump up and down and do cartwheels when he clarified that he'd only broken a part off. I friggen' hate this thing. After second set he tells me I look like I've been riding a horse for a week. Thanks Matt. But got my title. At hubby's 40th after everyone else had passed out my BIL and I sang this to karaoke over and over again pissed as nits thinking we had shit hot voices (as you do). It is a happy memory.

LIKE A BOX OF CHOCOLATES!!

Mama always said life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. - Forrest Gump

Ain't that the truth! I'm living the most amazing life. My world is absolutely magical. Everything is just as it should be. Little things just keep happening and making sense. I am so happy.

It's so wonderful when you finally realise that you are a completely unique physical, emotional, and spiritual being. A perfect creation one might say. All of your answers are within you, in your heart and in your soul. You are a spiritual being having a human experience.

Trust your body, trust your feelings, trust your heart, and trust yourself.

HEY SPUNK!!

Who me? Yeah you. Yes, I am talking to you. You are totally freakin' AWESOME and one hell of a big spunk. You got it all goin' on sista.

"I'll have what she's having - some SPUNK!"

ANGER NO MORE!!

Give up your anger. Get clear on what you are angry about and who you are angry at. Let go of it. Do what you need to do to cleanse yourself of anger - scream at the top of your lungs, punch fuck out of a pillow, deadlift heavy shit - whatever works and gets it all out. Big big breath in and release. Bawl like a baby afterwards. They are tears of relief. Forgive and forget and the problem will disappear. When you forgive others and yourself you give up all claim to punishment and restore balance and harmony bringing peace and calmness.

I am angry no more. It is gone!

HUGS FOR UNDERSTANDING!!

Incline Barbell Bench Press
- 42.5 kgs x 12 reps
- 48 kgs x 10 reps, getting short

Barbell Bent Row
- 65 kgs x 20 reps, getting upright
- 75 kgs x 10 reps + 5, getting upright

Tricep Overhead Rope Extension
- 40 pds x 20 reps

SS with

Lying Bicep Cable Curl
- 18 kgs x 17 reps

Tricep Overhead DB Extension
- 15 kgs x 15 reps

SS with

Lying Bicep Cable Curl
- 18 kgs x 18 reps

Tricep Overhead DB Extension
- 15 kgs x 15 reps

SS with

Lying Bicep Cable Curl

18 kgs x 13 reps

YOU'RE BODY WILL LISTEN!!

You should be loving your body just as it is NOW. It has, afterall, done everything you've told it to do. It has given you what you secretly wanted. Protection from your deepest FEARS. It looks exactly as your THOUGHTS have told it to look.

But, what if you delve deeper and find the CAUSE of your fear and hence your weight problem? You then develop a loving relationship with your body. Treating it with the love and respect it is worthy of, feeding it foods that it feels like, engaging in pamper and relaxation sessions. You tell it it deserves to be at it's ideal weight and look how you "see" yourself in your ideal form and shape. What will it do then? You're body will listen.

HOW HAS YOUR WEEK BEEN?

A continual journey of self discovery.

When I live in my head I live with pain, confusion and fear. I become angry, negative, anxious, scared, depressed, and very tearful. I'm unable to sleep and resort to a sleeping tablet to zonk me out. My joints suffer. My knees are painful. My back aches. I am tortured and tormented by my toxic thoughts which go around and around and nowhere.

When I listen to my heart I am happy, positive, energetic, upbeat, awesome. My head then comes along to join the party and as if by magic everything falls into place. My body moves loosely and freely, my breathing is slow and controlled, my whole being is cool, calm and collected.

I had written an affirmation which I had been reading daily lots of times but I could feel resistance to it. An uneasiness I couldn't explain. I didn't believe what I had written and therefore it was never going to be real. I changed my affirmation and wrote one that really represents me and how I think and feel. I believe that if I live my life every day this way then my body will be a manifestation outwardly of what's on the inside.

I was graced with TOM's presence on Thursday, 5 weeks since he previously visited. I wondered if my hormones had wreaked havoc with my thoughts?

A lot more chilling, relaxation and self nuturing is in order. There's a whole lotta lovin' goin' on. I had a revelation that is changing my life forever!! It's something I had never THOUGHT possible before but I am now ready and willing and believe that with every sense of my being I am healing and becoming free. This is the most amazing, miraculous THOUGHT!! I want completion.

IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK!!

"It's not WHAT you eat or HOW much you eat. It's WHO's eating you!"

Food is a form of energy that cannot harm you or do something to you if you do not want it to. Calories are units of heat which equates to energy. Energy is either positive or negative. You choose the vibration. It's all a state of mind.

There is Only One Diet that will work forever and ever and happily ever after. It is a diet of forgiveness, a fast from negative thought, a diet that can change your body into the one you visualise. It is not a diet of restriction or deprivation or self harm. It's a diet of love, enjoyment, fulfilment. The extra weight you are carrying is the emotional baggage in your head and in your heart. When you release (not lose) this excess baggage you will release energy into the present and dissolve fat bringing your body into perfect alignment resulting in "your perfect body".

You will, at last, be full and free, fulfilled and satisfied.

WHAT IS MY IDEAL BODY?

Who says the female body shouldn't have some fat on it? Who says that curves aren't beautiful? Who says we have to be scarecrow skinny? Who says that leanness is attractive? Who says muscles equal sexy? Who says six pack abs equals happiness?

Did my husband love me more when I was on stage the leanest I've ever been? Did my friends love me any less when I had more body fat? Underneath the external I was still the same person with a different outer shell. So, what is my ideal body? I honestly don't know. My set point has been tampered with too many times to know where my body would naturally be geared to maintain. But what I do know is that my body is exactly the right shape and size in this moment. I know that I am beautiful. I know that my body is a manifestation of my thoughts and will re-balance when it is ready. I know that it will take action and hard work to turn possibility into reality. And I know I want to show it the love and respect it is worthy of and deserves.

KISS MY ASS!!

Whenever I'm doing stiff leg deady's I think "kiss my ass" which helps me stick it out, and push it back. A bit like tits out really. Tits and arse, tits and arse, tits and arse. Both will get you anywhere in life (LOL). Whist telling Matt today about my record lift on Tuesday, I was telling him how an older gentleman was standing behind me (watching the tele) and made a comment to Liz. He said "he wasn't watching the tele!" I find it interesting that men think with their dicks whilst women think with their hearts, or in my case lately would be better off if they got out of their heads and into their hearts.

Thursday's Lift Heavy Shit Session

Stiff Leg Deadlifts

- 70 kgs x 20 reps

- 80 kgs x 15 reps

- 90 kgs x 17 reps

Lying Leg Curls

- 50 pds x 20 reps

- 50 pds x 20 reps

- 50 pds x 20 reps

Wide Leg Press

- 120 kgs x 50 reps

- 120 kgs x 40 reps

- 140 kgs x 30 reps

THEY DON'T WORK!!

When I "lost" weight I always found it again - eventually. If diets worked then how come I was always on one? Wouldn't it be the case of buy 1 diet for the rest of my life? Fact is - DIETS DON'T WORK (for me)!! Loads of diet studies rate a 96 to 98 percent failure rate. The few who do manage to keep the kilos off are those who make a living out of weight control. For the rest it's a case of "giving up, blowing it - again, I'm hopeless and other self-destructive thoughts". I'd hate to estimate the amount of money I have spent in my dieting career. From programs (Jenny Craig), to gadgets, to body shaping systems, lotions and potions, pills, not to mention ciggies. No wonder the diet industry is thriving. They've got billions of dollars invested in keeping a lie alive. And that's just money. What about the all the time and energy I wasted. How come we never see a follow up success story 5 or 10 years after we see the before and afters? I've got so many before and afters my hard drive is running out of memory.

The bottom line - Dieting doesn't work - period!

Just in case anyone gets their knickers in a knot over this, I've written it for me, myself and I and to remind myself to never, ever again go on one.

THE FOOD WAR IS OVER!!

I'm constantly bombarded with the voice of the food police, better known to me as "Mad Monkey". He tells me things like:

• I need to watch portion sizes


• The more I eat the more exercise I have to do


• If I eat everytime I'm hungry I'll just get fatter and fatter


• I will never lose weight


• I'm fat


• I have to watch what I eat more closely
  

I'm dealing with these constant chants by writing down any negative thoughts that enter my mind. I simply dump them and wait until I feel calm again. This may be 5 minutes later or a day or two. I then go back and give myself a choice, without emotion. It's a mature reponse and an empowering alternative which sends MM back into the jungle to scratch his balls. I never said it was easy but it sure as hell is worth it.