Acceptance is essential to change, because without it I am stuck mentally in denying, excusing, and blaming. On the emotional level, if I do not accept what is, I am caught in a vicious circle of habits -hurt, guilt, and anger. I continue wanting to do things I have always done using the template for how I continually faced challenges. Just when I think I have spiralled upwards from observing to accepting I am brought crashing down and continue waging the battle within with the numbers confirming negative Nelly telling me "I'm fucked, I'll never get it, it's hopeless, it's not working, etc, etc".Sorry, not good today. Upset and fucking ANGRY!!
Monday's Lift Heavy Shit Training
DB Bench Press
- 25 kgs x 3 reps + 1 partial
- 27.5 kgs x got in hands
Floor DB Press
- 15 kgs x 8 reps
- 12.5 kgs x 19 reps
Overhead Rope Extension
- 20 pds x 20 reps
Floor Skullcrushers
- 17 kgs x 15 reps, fail 16
- 17 kgs x 12 reps
Overhead Rope Extension again
- 20 pds x 20 reps
Push-Press
- 30 kgs x 10 reps
- 30 kgs x 11 reps, fail 12
Lying Bicep Cable Curl
- 18 kgs x 18 reps
- 18 kgs x 16 reps
