BACK & ROCKIN' THIS WORLD!!

Why I love you!

• You support me

• You care for me
• You comfort me
• You love me


• You share with me


• You laugh with me

• You cry with me

• You kick my arse

• You praise me


• You encourage me


• You dream with me

YOU are my ANGEL! Thanks for maken' me a FIGHTER and consequently a WINNER!!

You're lookin' STRONG.

You're feelin' STRONG.

You ARE STRONG!!

INSIDE MY HEAD

I'm not a true hardcore competitor. Yeah, I'm competitive but mostly with myself. I don't diet hard. Tell me I have to eat tuna and lettuce to get on a stage and I'll fucken' kill myself before I get there. I eat junk. I eat processed food but mostly I eat healthy. I resist temptation (most times). I give in sometimes too. I have low calorie days. I have high calorie days. I have low carb, high carb, moderate carb days. I do what I feels right on the day. I reinforce positive behaviour of moderation by eating the foods I enjoy on a daily basis and practising on the way down. I train hard, always have, always will. Some days more so than others. I do my best on the day.

What will it mean if I don't look like my vision? Will I have failed myself? Could I have done better? Where did I go wrong? What did I do right?

What if I surpass my vision? What does that prove? Am I a better/wiser/smarter/stronger person because of it?

Either way I'm being me - true to myself and my beliefs. I'm loving my body, nuturing my mind, and loving my life. I'm living the life I've always imagined.

Otherwise - what's the point?

YESTERDAY'S OUTBURST!

The cause: Sleep deprivation, mental and physical exhaustion, hunger.

The cure: Drugs!



After a full-on weekend training resulting in major soreness in the quads and hamstrings, progress pics and thinking about how I hate my arse and legs and how much I hate fat with little sleep I had a meltdown. I tried to have an arvo nap on Sunday but was overtired and just couldn't get there. Was like a walking zombie. Got to bed late due to big boy's plane being delayed (bloody Jetstar) and then woke at 2 am starving hungry with a foul headache. Got up and ate then went and trained, trained a client and came home and rescheduled my other clients for the day, took a sleeping tablet and slept solidly for 3 hours and woke feeling much better. Here's to the rest of the week being more calmer and even.

ONE WORD

FUCKED

THE AFTERPARTY!!

When: Sunday, 17 May 2009 after comp

Time: 6 pm-ish

Where: http://www.groovetrain.com.au/locations/brisbane/

RSVP: Please leave a simple comment "yes" and number of you and your friends for booking purposes.

WHAT'D YOU EAT YESTERDAY?

IF THE WALLS COULD TALK!!

As much as we try and not let the scales affect our thoughts and mood, when preparing to compete they become an important tool indicating whether we are or are not heading in the right direction, and hence the number can either make you or break you sometimes. This year, because I've been cruising in, doing the hard yards late last year, if the number was going down my subconscious was telling me I could eat more and hence I was in maintenance mode or just nudging a little bit off here and there. In an effort to stop these thought patterns I packed them up and pissed them off and have just been weighing in once or twice a week on a friends scales when I visit. At 5 weeks out I decided to get serious about dropping in order to be where I want to be and look how I want to look on "the day". Didn't want to get to 2 weeks out and go "shit -I've left my run too late". So, focus and dedication, has been revved up in which I've been rewarded with a scale drop of 1.1 kg's since last week - yippee! I'm rewarding myself with a massage this morning at 9 am - bliss! Today is going to be glorious!

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?

Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?

Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?

Have you ever looked fear in the face and said “I just don't care?”

It's only half past the point of no return

The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn

The thunder before the lightning, the breath before the phrase

Have you ever felt this way?

Pink - 'Cuz I Can

GIVING IT A GOOD SMACK!!

To do list today:

• Give it a friggin' good smack - tick, done
• Breaky - as we speak
• Work on computer
• Check on M & M
• Eat
• Secret Mission
• Look at scale weight
• Lunch
• Sleep
• Eat
• Preprepare tomorrow's food
• Maybe walk - depending on how I feel
• Dinner
• Dessert

Awesome day!! Done and dusted. Goodnight.

PS Abs and legs lookin' mighty fine and now training in shorts and a crop - woohoo!

BEING A TOUGH COOKIE!!

Mmmmm cookies! Usually I'd say that my training this morning was f#@ked however it was the best I could do on the day so the fact that I did something (and actually finished what was set to do) is an achievement in itself. Sometimes we are tired, sometimes depleted, sometimes just feeling like crap and it is these times that we let our minds get the better of us. But not this tough cookie. I'm sucking it up and getting on with the job at hand. I'm feeling and looking leaner again which is evident by the way my abs looked this morning upon rising. My scales are on vacation at Nicole's so it's unknown what the number would indicate but I can see it and I can feel it so it must be happening.

THE ONLY EXIT IS BEHIND ME!!

As a Figure Competitor it is normal to want to pull the pin on competing. It is normal to worry about not being lean enough. It is normal to feel exhausted at times. It is normal to get to that happy weight and want to stop there. It is normal to hate the scales and call them names. It is normal to be "over it" and "sick of it all". It is normal to get frustrated when practising posing, normal to get up at an ungodly hour to train, normal to have a nanna nap during the day, normal to hate being hungry.

But it is also normal to LOVE training, LOVE logging your food, LOVE seeing the scale number go down, LOVE posing and looking at yourself in the mirror, LOVE wearing your hooker heels and standing 10 feet tall, LOVE your imagination of how great you're gonna look on stage, LOVE looking forward to the next meal, LOVE food altogether.


What else do you think is normal about being an athlete?

WATCH THIS FACE!!

Introducing M & M, my two clients competing:

Melinda

Marie

They're both doing brilliantly!!

SWITCHED TO FLIGHT MODE!!

Welcome aboard "my final weeks to the stage." Crew members assisting are the lovely "KatieP" and "Nicole." For my comfort and safety "a treat a day to keep MM away." Cruising at an altitude of "I'm so excited." Estimated arrival time of "3 weeks and 6 days." Weather today is "a beautiful, bright one." In the unlikely event of an emergency "oats and powder to save the day." This flight is "full of positivity." I look forward to seeing you on "the day."

I HAVE A PLAN!

* To make each day count.
* To make each meal count.
* To make each workout count.
* To make each hour of sleep count.

* To do the best that I can each day to the best of my ability and be what I can be - MY PERSONAL BEST!! - Shelley Stark.

And on the "day" I will be what I will be.

LEAN OUT DAMN YOU

I look in the mirror. I like what I see. BUT, this is NOT competition (sick) lean. I must practice patience, persistence and consistency to get there but I want it NOW!! As the saying goes "good things come to those who wait". MM's trying but I'm shutting the little fucker up.

The tough times are a gift - they force us to grow and become more than we were.

JUMPING OUT OF MY SKIN!!

Friday 16 April 2009 - End of the Week.

My day started at 2.54 am when I woke naturally before the alarm which was set for 3.01 am. Pre-workout oats and powder, supplements, dressed, quick check of emails, teeth, wash face, throw on a hat. Gym at 3.50 am to train Chest/Biceps, Front & Rear Delts + 30 minutes mixed cardio. First client 5.40 am. Second client (this little machine). She smashed it!! And I even got her to do a bicep pose. I left to come home feeling a surge of excitement running through me and emailed her straight away telling her I love training her. This is what makes me passionate about what I do. You go girlfriend! More oats & powder then racing around madly packing to head to Sydney to stay with Katie and go to Filex. Then I get an emailed newsletter from Gym Funky in which I'm featured - wow, I feel special! If you haven't signed up yet to receive special offers and promotions you can do so here. Today is going to be one of those awesome, fantastic days, I can feel it!

MY VISION STATEMENT

I wrote this when doing my Personal Training certification and found it today when going through my files.

VISION STATEMENT

“To present clients with results driven nutrition and exercise plans together with superior service that will create friends for life.”

“I pledge to lead by example. I will inspire, educate, motivate and help others live their dream.”

HOOROO!

Hi Guys

Just wanted to let you know I've got a busy couple of weeks ahead of me and have had to priortise my list of "things to do" and unfortunately blogging is on the bottom of the list so before you start wondering if I've died from a chocolate overdose if I don't post it's simply cause I don't have the time.

HOW RUDE!!

As my good friend Nicole said to me yesterday:

"Who the fuck put Easter in the middle of Comp Prep?"

Thankfully, it's home today and the start of a new work/(ing)(out) week.

I AM HERE

I'm currently sitting in our holiday house at Orchid Beach, Fraser Island. The Easter holiday started yesterday morning at 2.30 am when I was up and heading to the gym to get one last smasher of a training session in before leaving home at 6 am. After driving for what seemed last most of the day (me snoozing on and off) we arrived at our destination at 2.30 pm. We're here with 3 other families, 20 people in total in a 7 bedroom, 2 bathroom, 2 kitchen house. Although I was planned and prepared with my food I was really struggling last night to hold it together whilst everyone else was in holiday mode drinking and eating nibblies before their big dinner of prawns, curries, rices, breads, etc. As I wasn't sure what facilities were here and what everyone else would be eating I thought it safer to just pack my own food with oats and powder featuring mostly on the menu for the next few days. I think they've all realised what a fan I am of this meal seeing as though I ate it for arvo tea, dinner and breaky this morning. Thankfully I recalled my goal and direction last night and was able to hold tight with only 3 lollies extra not planned. I was up at 4 am this morning and did a 45 minute MIIT circuit in the backyard in the dark. I would have liked to go for a run but was too scared of the dingos which apparently have been lurking around the island recently. Hubby wants to race me up the sand dunes later so I'll have a crack at that cause I really want to whip his arse. Half the gang are still in bed, the other half gone fishing, I'm home with the kids. When they get home they'll have breaky then I think we're gonna head to the Champagne Pools (pic above). Tomorrow marks the 5 week out mark which signals to me that there is no room for error if I am to reach my set goal. Higher calories for the next few days as I didn't want to be hungry AND out of my comfort zone but upon arriving home it'll be pedal to the metal, on the home straight, bringing it home, and coming in nice and lean, ripped and cut - oh yeah.

BEST TO SAY NOTHING TODAY

Training = 4 am Chest/Biceps/Front & Rear Delts + 40 mins steady state cardio

Daily Horoscope = The more organized you can be the better, whether at home or at the workplace. You don't want to find that you've misplaced the one thing that you desperately need.

GO THE RED FROGS!!

Training = 4.45 am Hip Dominant Legs + 10 mins bike intervals and 15 mins elliptical steady state cardio

Daily Horoscope = Someone who is older and wiser than you -- and more experienced, too -- will give you a valuable piece of advice at exactly the right time. Take it, and act accordingly.

MEALS SHARED WITH FRIENDS RULEZ!!

Training = 6 am - awesome cardio session. 30 mins intervals, 30 mins steady state

Daily Horoscope = You are both willing and able to do what is asked of you -- and more. When you get going, the competition had better look out, for you are going to come on strong.

PROFESSIONAL SHOTS ARE IN

THE END RESULT

I'm really pleased with the way things turned out. Actually I'm over the moon. There's some fine tuning to be done for actual comp day but overall a very successful outcome. I had two photo shoots today. The first one at 9.30 am with a professional photographer and the second one at midday at Gym Funky modelling some of their funky gear. Professional photos are being received tomorrow morning but here's a few pics in some gorgeous Gym Funky outfits.