It seems like ages and in fact has been since I last blogged and I must admit on purpose. It seemed that reading everyone else's blogs and what they were and weren't doing and blogging myself had me throwing to and fro, in a tizz and questioning what I was and wasn't doing.
And as they say "when the student is ready, the teacher appears". I've brought in the big guns so to speak and enlisted the help of even more professionals to help and guide me along this path they call life. Rediscovering myself, learning new and exciting concepts and dealing with the monster on my shoulder who continually tries to have a go at me. You know who I'm talking about. We all have one. Some call him the monkey. I think mine's an evil, coniving monster who's going to die a slow but sure death.
Now that Liz is doing one-on-one training I've been going to train with her twice a week. As a self taught trainee and fitness professional myself it's the little differences that make all the difference. I always thought that I trained hard myself but Liz knows just how to push me over the edge and ensures that a couple of days later she can hear me calling her "bitch"! But what I really love is that she's puffing in sympathy with me at the end of each set. This is my first experience at one-on-one training and if you've never had this yourself go now, find a trainer and get pushed off that cliff! It's the most euphoric feeling.
On the nutrition front I'm taking a different tact after having Biosignature testing done with Krista whilst she was here and now under the guidance of Lisa Stokes from Bodyworx. Lean & Green protocols for the past 8 days have me feeling really great with my cortisol levels dropping, fat melting away but most importantly headspace levelling out.
And on the headspace issue I've starting working with another professional - a Sports Psychologist. I got to the point where I just wasn't coping and needed someone in this specialised field to help me. When one of my dearest friends wrote to me saying "when you hear your friend (who you think is beautiful) crying on the phone on a weekly basis, you know that action needs to be taken so that your friend can re discover her unique beauty, regardless of what she weighs/looks like" I knew it was time to seek outside help and stop bombarding my friend with my sadness and pain.
So, I'm here still tapping away day by day and feeling better day by day also. I know I'm going to come out the other side a much better and stronger person for having gone through this.
Can't wait to see everyone at the upcoming comps. I've got a chicky competing myself who I've been training along with the help and guidance from Liz. She is already gorgeous, but going to look even more gorgeous on stage.
Keep well and stay safe everyone.